Yeah same! Like, any kind of sexuality sexytimes, I still get squirmy. (Come to think of it, I don't think I've written NC17 femslash...) Hey, it could be quite empowering for you to own it! But it's also a great release to porn anon without consequence, so I can see both sides.

I actually finished writing an NC17 scene for an exchange fic last night and I felt a little victorious about it. I can't remember the last time I wrote NC17 that wasn't for a porn battle or kink meme or porn meme or whatever. It's not fap material or anything, but still, look! Peen!