What did you do wrong? What failure in your motherhood has led your children to be unable to see the obvious presence of God? It hurts to have her children shun something that, in the past, has been the only thing to keep her afloat.

Yeah, see. This! And I feel bad because I know that it must make her unhappy, even if she doesn't say that often. Because according to her beliefs, I'm not going to heaven, and she is.It's probably the most painful part of my disbelief/dislike of God, that I am hurting my mother by it. *waves hands* It's frustrating but I can't change my beliefs because of it. And that hurts.