And I guess that's the thing, because Narnia is not a big part of my childhood. I came into it as an overanalytical adult. What compelled me about the stories and what made me love it was not the happyfuntimes, but the ~angst~ and, I suppose, the extent to which I could use it as a vehicle to wrestle with my own issues about religion and growing up. Which is funny, because this is one of the things that Pico Iyer's 'Abandon' was talking about: reconciling with love through misery. It's like that line from The Tudors that Catherine says, "It is when we are at our most wretched that we are closest to God."