This post starts out relatively coherent, then quickly goes downhill.

[whynot]

Do anyone of you read Fables? I'm near the end of the series and I have Thoughts about it. But first let's talk about TV.


Let's start with the Trans and how much I love them. I was kind of dreading this episode as much as I was looking forward to it 'cos 1) ~tiger mom~ ugh, 2) Dabb & Lofflin, but on the other hand we have OMG WOC REPRESENTATION and CAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSS, so I just wanted it to at least not suck but um WOW I ended up kind of loving it though. It wasn't perfect but I am kind of in love.

I'd like to recommend xenoamorist's meta on Asian stereotypes 'cos it articulates a lot of things that ring true for me, particularly the point that stereotypes "may not so much be a stereotype as it is one facet of a common story/pattern, the complexity of which needs to be explored more and deconstructed and reconstructed". One thing that I would like to add is that a stereotype like 'tiger mom' is basically the white gaze turned on ~*AZN*~ things, judging these things, and finding them wanting. When I see people try to debunk stereotypes, they usually flip the things instead of the gaze, which is a wrong-headed approach. Like, I don't need Kevin to be whatever the opposite of a nerd is. That is missing the point. That approach privileges the white gaze, and approves non-white things (East Asian values re: academia and hard work, in this case) by white standards. It's alienating. The gaze can be alienating, so don't forget to check that.

On a different note, another reason the Trans make me happy is that there are so few mother-son relationships that are portrayed as positive and close on TV (Jax-Gemma on SoA is the other one I can think of), so I hope Kevin and Linda continue with this. THOUGH OMG CHEKHOV'S CLUE ABOUT KEVIN'S DAD THO? A CLUE ABOUT KEVIN'S DAD BROUGHT UP IN THE FIRST ACT--!

I look forward to that.

I also like the part where anytime the Winchesters tried to separate them for their own good~, they were both like "LOL THAT'S CUTE THE WAY YOU THINK YOU CAN MAKE ME DO WHAT YOU WANT now sit down before I kick you in the face".

I <3 THE TRANS

YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE I LIKE?

OH SHIT

HERE IT COMES

CAN'T HOLD IT BACK

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

PEACH FUZZZZ

I PRAYED TO YOU

EVERY NIGHT!!!!!

I KNOWWWWWW

WE'RE GOING HOME

WEEEEEEEEE are going home

BUDDY I NEED YOU

I

NEED YOU

LET ME BOTTOM-LINE IT FOR YOU

I'M NOT LEAVING HERE WITHOUT YOU, UNDERSTAND?

UNDERSTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND???

HOLY FUCK

HOLY

FUCK

WHEN THEY WRITE MY BIOGRAPHY, IT WILL BE TITLED "OUTSHIPPED BY CANON"!!!

omg do you remember the part where Cas was like "but if I go with you, the Leviathans will hunt you too" and Dean was all, "I DON'T CAAAAAAAAAAARE IF THE MOST TERRIBLE OF MONSTERS HUNT ME, Cas, as long we're together, ok" and Benny's just off to the side being all :| 'cos it's always awkward when the new boyfriend meets the ex, except Cas is not so ex because Dean BASICALLY SPENT ALL HIS TIME IN PURGATORY OBSESSED WITH FINDING HIM.

pls where is paper bag i can breathe into or maybe throw up into

I saw someone compare Dean's search for Cas to Cas's search for Dean in hell, Cas asking demons "WHERE'S THE RIGHTEOUS MAN?" before he kills them. But Cas didn't know Dean as DEAN then, just as the Righteous Man that he was to raise under heaven's orders. Dean, on the other hand, knows exactly who he's looking for. Who he's killing for. Who this stupid fucking navel-gazing fratricidal angel with TOO MANY FEELINGS and the wrong priorities is. He's the mantra that gets Dean through the day, "When I find Cas, it'll be okay," and, "When I find Cas, we'll go home," and it feeds into this myth of Castiel that he's nurtured in this place, because you always need hope, even when hope brings out your killing instinct and darker impulses to see itself fulfilled. So that's Dean on survival mode: hope, and the blood he's spilled for hope. Then he finds hope on the riverbank and hugs him and tell him he's got a nice beard. Business as yoosh.

GOOD THINGS DO HAPPEN, CAS. YOU DON'T BELIEVE YOU DESERVE TO BE SAVED?

I have been trying to write the reunion fic where Dean and Cas touch each other a lot but I don't even know what POV to commit to 'cos writing a Dean broken open with relief is appealing but so is Cas's disarmed rediscovery of Dean, BUT so is Benny's outsider POV of pre-Dean/Cas. Poke me in comments if you don't mind me word-vomiting at you about it, 'cos that helps. IDEK GUYS, YOU GUYS, DEAN HAD TO FIND CAS, TELL CAS DEAN NEEDS HIM, TELL HIM HE'S SET CAS APART, SO LET'S GO BACK TO THE START BECAUSE NOBODY SAID IT WAS EASY AND IT'S SUCH A SHAME FOR THEM TO PART!!! NO ONE EVER SAID IT WOULD BE THIS HAAAAARRRRRDDDDDD.

...sorry.

On another note, how sad is it for Dean that with both Cas and Sam, he went through all this crap to find them, but in the end they were both like, "No, I'm not coming with you and I didn't look for you," and he basically had to twist their arms?


Also, I wrote 8x02 episode tag. Here it is, all 350ish shippy gen words of it: He prays the way people use the telephone.

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[whynot]

OK SO I USED TO HAVE A LITTLE HEADCANON THAT CAS AND BENNY MET BEFORE DEAN AND BENNY MET AND CAS MADE BENNY TAKE CARE OF DEAN 'COS CAS CAN'T ANYMORE, BUT IT CAN TOTALLY STILL WORK THAT CAS AND BENNY CONSPIRATORIALIZE to leave Cas behind, and I can't decide if I want Benny being a little YAY! about leaving Cas behind because he doesn't like Cas (for jealous reasons or otherwise) or if he's not bothered either way because he's a pragmatist. And Cas may not like Benny much either, but from what he's seen, he knows Benny will keep Dean safe (if only because Benny needs to escape in Dean's arm, though possibly also because of buttsex reasons) and that is the important thing right now, and what if they make this deal early in the game?? But as the days go byyyyyy, they develop a grudging respect of each other because they have a ~code.

I'M IN A COMMENT THREAD WITH A BEAUTIFUL CAPSLOCKER AND I WON'T TELL YOU THAT ILU BUT ILU