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I also wibbled about jobs and considered joining the PhD program to put off looking for a job.
I stopped doing anything productive as soon as I got back to the dorms for a late dinner. I should've been asleep a few hours ago and all caught up on Lost, but alas this is not so. TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY.
Okay, drabbles! And then I sleep, I swear. All the titles are Sufjan Stevens song titles, because why not? Bed, you have seen these all before.
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edmund, post-lww
Edmund is a bit better at being rejected out of Narnia, because he himself has been betrayer once, and he himself has broken the hearts of those who loved him. It's not that he understands why this has happened, because he doesn't. He's been sent back to England and it hurts, but he has learned to wait and to watch and to listen. Aslan was patient and forgiving that day on the hill; Edmund is patient, and if he can't forgive the Lion now, Edmund trusts he will in the future.
all the trees of the field will clap their hands
susan, post-tlb
The past is not preserved in dreams; the dreams reflect her present, busy and mundane and brittle. (She once dreamed she was at a party where she remembered no one's name, and woke up with her fists clenched and her heart beating furiously.)
For the most part, Susan keeps the past in her memories where it belongs, and who knows where she keeps her memories. Sometimes she finds herself wanting to dream about her siblings, to once more love them in a dream-world where anything is possible, instead of loving them in memories, in a real-world where boundaries are becoming clearer everyday.
And as for Aslan, well. She misses loving him, at least.
we won't need legs to stand
pevensies, knowing aslan by another name
They go to church. Lucy adores it at first, talks about how Jesus does look like Aslan, look at his hair, etc. Edmund appreciates its solemnity, Susan appreciates its ceremony, and Peter goes because it is his duty as Aslan's Knight. Still, they can't help but be bored sometimes, and pinch each other to keep awake during services. Edmund says once, "It is rather like being back at court when Peter gives one of those overlong speeches," which makes Lucy giggle and Peter smile wryly. Susan tells him off for blaspheming.
Lucy takes to wearing a crucifix; she wears it proudly. Edmund stops wearing his, because he doesn't need a trinket to believe. Father Christmas never gave him a gift and he turned out all right, didn't he? The four of them sometimes debate the differences between the lessons of the Bible and the lessons of their lives in Narnia, trying to reconcile the differences. His experience as spymaster has taught Edmund to distill signs and symbols, and he recognizes the value of true lies, but Peter is not as good at this as he. These discussions stay with him. Peter thinks about them when he is alone, when he can't sleep. He misses the laughter of Dryads and the songs of Fauns.
Okay, drabbles! And then I sleep, I swear. All the titles are Sufjan Stevens song titles, because why not? Bed, you have seen these all before.
size too small
edmund, post-lww
Edmund is a bit better at being rejected out of Narnia, because he himself has been betrayer once, and he himself has broken the hearts of those who loved him. It's not that he understands why this has happened, because he doesn't. He's been sent back to England and it hurts, but he has learned to wait and to watch and to listen. Aslan was patient and forgiving that day on the hill; Edmund is patient, and if he can't forgive the Lion now, Edmund trusts he will in the future.
all the trees of the field will clap their hands
susan, post-tlb
The past is not preserved in dreams; the dreams reflect her present, busy and mundane and brittle. (She once dreamed she was at a party where she remembered no one's name, and woke up with her fists clenched and her heart beating furiously.)
For the most part, Susan keeps the past in her memories where it belongs, and who knows where she keeps her memories. Sometimes she finds herself wanting to dream about her siblings, to once more love them in a dream-world where anything is possible, instead of loving them in memories, in a real-world where boundaries are becoming clearer everyday.
And as for Aslan, well. She misses loving him, at least.
we won't need legs to stand
pevensies, knowing aslan by another name
They go to church. Lucy adores it at first, talks about how Jesus does look like Aslan, look at his hair, etc. Edmund appreciates its solemnity, Susan appreciates its ceremony, and Peter goes because it is his duty as Aslan's Knight. Still, they can't help but be bored sometimes, and pinch each other to keep awake during services. Edmund says once, "It is rather like being back at court when Peter gives one of those overlong speeches," which makes Lucy giggle and Peter smile wryly. Susan tells him off for blaspheming.
Lucy takes to wearing a crucifix; she wears it proudly. Edmund stops wearing his, because he doesn't need a trinket to believe. Father Christmas never gave him a gift and he turned out all right, didn't he? The four of them sometimes debate the differences between the lessons of the Bible and the lessons of their lives in Narnia, trying to reconcile the differences. His experience as spymaster has taught Edmund to distill signs and symbols, and he recognizes the value of true lies, but Peter is not as good at this as he. These discussions stay with him. Peter thinks about them when he is alone, when he can't sleep. He misses the laughter of Dryads and the songs of Fauns.
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I mean, aw, Pevensies!
<3
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also, you're back! <33
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