whynot: hockey: stay warm in the wintertime (first line)
2025-01-07 05:51 pm
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fannish 50 #1

Happy new year, first of all. In an attempt to oil my brain, I've joined Fannish 50 in 2025. I've been consuming a lot of media, maybe too much, and maybe I have too many streaming apps available to me -- SO. The least I can do is try to process some of it. When I put things into words, it helps me to remember, and my brain, she's so dusty and creaky these days.

BLACK SAILS // I finished watching Black Sails recently, which I admit I only started watching because my cool and smart friend loves it. It didn't make much of an impression on me, however. I'm not sure if that's because it's just not my thing, or if my brain just wanted to go from visual stimuli to visual stimuli chasing that dopamine. It's very sexy and very fun to watch with friends, but probably not a rewatch show.

EDINBURGH NIGHTS // I've been really enjoying TL Huchu's Edinburgh Nights books. The simplified description is that it's like Ben Aaronovitch's Rivers of London series, except instead of a London cop as protagonist, it's an impoverished Scottish teenager. When I read the first Edinburgh Nights book (The Library of the Dead -- why yes i did start reading it because i was intrigued by ~Magical Library~~*), I wasn't sure I liked the writing style, but then I thought maybe the style is an effect of the narrative voice (it's written in 1st-person in a more conversational style). I'm still not sure, but TL Huchu knows how to tell a compelling story and I am all in now. I cannot wait for the next book.

I started typing Jeanette Ng's "Under the Pendulum Sun", but I think this is it for now. I have to see to the dog's dinner and then clean up the kitchen so I can mess it up again cooking MY dinner. I'll talk about my "Under the Pendulum Sun" Wincest AU next entry. Over and out.
whynot: Merlin: parc asterix don't know what hit it (AAAAAHHH)
2023-09-14 10:41 pm

trick or treat letter

Hello friend,

First of all, thanks for writing for me! I love haunted houses and devoted monsters. I'm not really interested in porn. If it's there, cool! But I don't need it. My definite DNWs are kidfic and mundane/modern AU please.


My prompts can fall into a few categories:

1) HORROR
My ideal horror stories are House of Leaves, The Haunting of Hill House, and Lake Mungo. I like the creeping dread, the places that look like Escher designed them drunk, genius loci, not knowing if something is real or not, being the only person for miles around, and all kinds of forests. I'm thinking mostly of Supernatural and Narnia for this.

2) ADVENTURE
I'm thinking more of a Stranger Things or Indiana Jones vibe. There are horror elements, but it is mostly an adventure! Friendship, capers, and quest objects. I'm thinking of Red Dead Redemption, Welcome to Night Vale, and Fallout for this, but for some of my RDR prompts I can definitely see how more horror can work.

3) STEPHEN BLACK AND MRS BRANDY
if you write about Stephen Black and Mrs Brandy, please make it happy ;___;


Well, that's about it. Have fun!
whynot: SPN: angel say wut (OH NO THEY DINT)
2023-01-13 05:12 pm

BRING YOUR OWN FEELINGS

YO

COME PARTY WITH ME IN

THE THREE SENTENCE FICATHON

commentfic chaos i have missed you :')
whynot: etc: oh deer (Default)
2023-01-07 02:30 pm

drink coffee and watch the americans

When I watched Strange World, within the first 15 minutes I was like hmm this musta gotten as much hate from Certain People as Lightyear did. Unsurprisingly I really enjoyed it. What a lovely message too!

ey, anyone into Mass Effect. I just finished my Legendary Edition playthrough, which is also the first time I have played any Mass Effect at all. cryin. spoilers, and uhhh spoilers for red dead redemption 2 too i guess )

Would you be so kind as to rec me Mass Effect fics please thank you kindly
whynot: Pineapple Express: i'm hungry (fuck yeah fruit roll-ups)
2023-01-05 09:50 pm

doing things

Yuletide was delightful because both the fic I received and the fic I wrote were about the same thing, which was what Stephen Black did post-canon. I LOVE STEPHEN BLACK. Are you a fan of Susanna Clarke's Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell? Here are some ideas about what happened next.

King's Progress by azurefishnets
"The man once Stephen Black, as the new King of Lost-Hope, decides to make a Royal Progress through his demesne on the advice of a raven after realizing how little he knows how to rule a fae court. He meets the Raven King himself with surprizing consequences for both." 3840 words of DELIGHT

The stones shall make a throne for me by me! Las.
"The new king of Lost-hope is not like the last." 5756 words

*

You know what, while we're at it, let's continue with a little fic roundup. Here is mine for both 2022 and 2021, and they are all Red Dead Redemption 2 because it's always time to cry about cowboys:

whatever you i shall love
Abigail/Sadie, general audience
AU. Abigail is safe at last with her family in a home of their own. She still worries about bungling it all up. 3990 words.

in the silence that followed
Charles/Sadie, rated M
At the end of both their ropes, they have a moment of connection in Lakay. 1230 words

that which carries me
Charles, gen
Charles Smith joins the gang. 2623 words

will you hear the sound
Charles/Arthur, rated M
Set in Colter after The Aftermath of Genesis. "In this little cabin, the world felt shrunk down to just the two of them. It was easier to just want, to just be."


Anyway, one of my new year's resolutions is to join more fic exchanges, so I'll see you around!
whynot: Where's Waldo: je suis perdu (que hora son mi corazón)
2022-08-26 06:42 pm
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i watched tv and now i'm here

 I started typing whynot into the address bar, then autocomplete taught me that there is such a place as Whynot, North Carolina. Well, unincorporated community. It was established nearby other communities such as Erect and Hemp. Quoth the Wiki, "The community was originally spelled with two separate words, "Why Not". The origin of town's name came from residents debating a title for their community. A man finally remarked: "Why not name the town Why Not and let's go home?""

A wise man.

I have been WAITING for the new/last season of See. I was not impressed by the new/last seasons of Locke & Key or On My Block, so come hit me with a winner, show.  I wonder if once upon a time I would not have liked See very much because it's very violent, the same way Game of Thrones was not my cup of tea, but maybe my tastes have changed? I really like this show. I don't have very deep thoughts yet. I enjoyed the S3 premiere and I'm looking forward to more.

I'm all caught up on For All Mankind, and that show just gets weirder each season. S1 is worth watching. Love the space race AU where the USSR made it to the moon first and women became a more central part of NASA.  But in S3, it feels like Just Another Space Show and you kinda lose the alternate history luster of it. I appreciate what it's trying to do, but some things felt straight-up shark-jumpy.  I also have a tangle of thoughts about the representation of American politics on it that I have no idea how to begin unpacking. So there's that. 
whynot: etc: oh deer (Default)
2022-08-18 04:42 pm

Broadcasting from phone browser

 Idk what I was expecting when I searched for 'dreamwidth' in the app store, but there is no Dreamwidth app. That's not surprising. There is, however, a Livejournal app.

Anyway, the other day I rewatched Merlin, the Hallmark miniseries version, and that shit is still fucking baller, man. Sam Neill and Isabella Rossellini and Helena Bonham Carter! Also Sebastian Roche was there. Sam Neill's Merlin had hella Obi-Won vibes. Sure, the effects are cheesy looking now, but in middle school I thought they were just marvelous. After watching The Sandman, the theme of where gods come from is still forefront in my mind. No wonder I turned out the way I did. At 13, everything felt like a revelation. In my formative years, I learned that magic is half inspiration, half dedication. When they all literally turn their back on Mab, my heart was in my throat again. The power of belief, the shadow of memory, anchored by stories.

Speaking of Sandman! Twenty five years in development hell was probably worth it to give time for the special effects to catch up. I CANNOT WAIT FOR BARBIE'S ARC.
whynot: Fantasia: rhapsody in blue (music music music)
2021-08-12 06:11 pm

more snippet

At some point during the AU, Charles and Arthur go on a lil road trip to make sure Charles's dad hasn't completely disappeared down the bottle. Charles was gonna go just by himself, but y'know. Arthur offered to tag along for support and Charles was like okay, why not.

you know you're old when your OC is the character's actual parent )
whynot: Once Upon a Time in Mexico: malaguena salerosa (up in lights)
2021-08-11 11:31 pm

artist commune AU:

So far, there's only this. But if you don't know how to write the story yet, then tell yourself a story about the story, so here's what I got:

It opens on a bonfire. Most people are a few beers in, and the loudest conversation is Sean and Lenny arguing about the likelihood of reincarnation. Do you think we're born the exact same people we used to be? What about history and circumstance? How would they affect? Javier says no, we get one life - this one. It's why it's so precious. And Lenny says okay, but what if the one life is shit? Like, a giant stinking pile of shit. Karen is the voice of exasperated optimism: is this life so bad they're already thinking of the next one?

Hosea chimes in with a quote. He can't remember the source, and Arthur says that means he's making it up. "Optimism is the belief that the life we're in is the best possible version; pessimism fears this is true."  Hosea turns to the newcomer and tries to draw him out. "What do you think, Charles?"

Charles was content to soak in the ambience. All attention is on him now, not necessarily looking for an answer, but just generally gawking at fresh meat. Or at least, that's how he feels. Charles sighs. "I don't know, I haven't really given it much thought.  Too busy worrying about this life to think about the next."

The conversation moves on from him, so he relaxes. Everyone has an opinion, or at the very least more questions. What if this life is a gift? What if our worst life is over?

Arthur says, "Can't be. We still have to eat Pearson's cooking in this one."

Javier finishes tuning his guitar. The first song has no words, just triplets of minor chords as the fire crackles and pops.  By the fifth song, though, even Charles is singing along.

+

Charles's car is fifteen years old, and it's full of his dad's blues and jazz CDs. His favorite memory of his father is when he taught Charles how to play the harmonica. He only remembers a handful of songs, but he still listens to Oscar Peterson all the time. 

Two voicemails on his phone and Charles is being a coward again. The easiest thing to do with his dad has always been to run away. He supposes that's why he's here. He's just not sure if it's going to work this time. Charles keeps thinking his father is not long for this world, but he's been thinking that since he turned thirteen. He is wrong every time. Amos Smith is not a perfect man, but he is full of surprises. You just never know whether they're going to be good or bad.

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idk, i feel really adamant that in my modern day au charles has at least one parent around oKAY. anyway, for real, harmonica!charles. harmonica!charles, sea shanty version.
whynot: Where's Waldo: je suis perdu (que hora son mi corazón)
2021-08-09 09:30 pm

NOT ALL AT THE SAME TIME YET THOUGH~~~~~~

I think sometimes I just want a fandom experience like SPN again, but idk, maybe not really, but maybe sometimes? Minus all the crap. (YOU KNOW THE CRAP OF WHICH I SPEAK.) Maybe that time has just passed? I loved my little corner of the internet 10 years ago, our little subcategory of chaos. Maybe I just miss LJ in general. All the supportive and spontaneous creativity. Now I just feel like Steve Buscemi with a skateboard on tumblr.

~~~~at this point i wandered off and saw misha's dean/cas tweet?????

SO ABOUT THAT. It felt so wild the first time Misha got all up in fandom's business and we were like OH MY GOD HE IS READING~ OUR STUFF teehee!!, but it was also the first time I saw the 'outside world' look our way. And not just the outside world but the ppl who made my canon, specifically. And sure it was weird sometimes, but I think now I'm glad it happened? Not that I wasn't glad then, or not glad, or what. My point is that now Roger Clark and Noshir Dalal are both like, "Please, ship Charthur to your heart's content!!!" and it's... idk, it makes me smile. We've come some ways, I think.

The Red Dead fics I'm loving are really really REALLY SAD and I spent all of Sunday curled up in a ball on the couch getting my heart stabbed by WORDS. Specifically these words. Spoilers for EVERYTHING. Spoilery spoilers everywhere. It felt like reading candle_beck's "Gone Again" or "The Rest of Your Life", that's how expansive and engulfing and utterly soul-crushing it is. Except it ends on a more hopeful note! AND YET I AM STILL IN PAIN.

If my next fic is just a romcom set in an artist commune in central Massachusetts modern AU, this is why.

whynot: Where's Waldo: je suis perdu (que hora son mi corazón)
2021-07-27 11:37 pm

listen arthur morgan is a hufflepuff

This was mostly just going to be me compiling characterization notes for myself. Somewhere along the way it turned into ~2300 of gen fic about Charles joining the gang. It's unbeta'ed and I haven't written anything since 2017, so please excuse the creaky joints. I'm happy to have finally finished something though. The conversation between Lenny and Dutch is mostly lifted from their actual camp conversation. If any of the race stuff is badly done, please let me know and I will fix it.



devil makes three lyric goes here )
whynot: etc: excuses, excuses (express yourself)
2021-07-21 05:51 pm

is this thing on. IS THERE ANYBODY OUT THERE

Hello, I finished playing Red Dead Redemption 2 for the first time and now my eyes won't stop leaking. Who wants to talk about cowboys making out?
whynot: etc: oh deer (Default)
2019-12-10 04:23 pm

FANFICTION MASTERLIST // sticky post

I crosspost to [livejournal.com profile] twoskeletons. If by some chance one of my fics happens to inspire you, feel freeeeee to do whatever with them, including but not limited to podfic, art, writing in 'verses, remix, etc! All I ask is that you link me so I can see. :)


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All my fanmixes can be found under this tag.

a lot of fic ).
whynot: Where's Waldo: je suis perdu (que hora son mi corazón)
2017-09-14 05:24 pm
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this land is whose land

 I'm watching the Magnificent Seven and hey, don't I know that Native American actor from somewhere? Turns out it's Jonathon Joss, who played Ken Hotate in 'Parks and Rec'. The movie's rolling on in the background and I'm looking up stuff about him. He voiced John Redcorn on 'King of the Hill', but I never watched that. Here's an interesting quote:
 

Are the roles for Native American actors better now than when you first got into the business?

I would love to say things have changed over that time, that there are more mature Native American characters being written, but I’m not sure that’s happened. I can say that at least Native American characters are allowed to think now instead of being the old sidekicks like Tonto, where the Lone Ranger asks “Are those four men on horses?” and Tonto says, “Yes. There are four men on horses.” Our characters now are a little deeper. They’re allowed to have their own thoughts. Sometimes non-Native American writers have us doing things we wouldn’t do or saying things we wouldn’t say — stuff that’s just not in our DNA — but at least we’re getting to think now. I’m still riding horses, shooting arrows and killing white people, so a lot hasn’t changed since I got into the business, but at least it hasn’t gotten worse.

I started watching the Ken Burns 'National Parks' documentary, subtitled America's Greatest Idea. "First," it seems to say, "you get rid of all the Indians." It's a history I've been delving into with increasing purpose. Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer is a beautiful book celebrating Native American relationships with the land. I found it really nourishing, with useful meditations on the concept of home. Sherman Alexie's The Lone Ranger and Tonto Fistfight in Heaven is a collection of short stories with a visceral, freewheeling style. I've only known his poems before, but this anthology makes me want to delve more into his prose. (hashtag tbt but i found myself wondering if candle-beck read and loved sherman alexie, back in the day. their styles felt similar.) I recommend both these books. Kimmerer and Alexie have vastly different styles, but there is something elegiac in both their works, her longing for a golden past and his anger at the current scars.

I don't know. I'm an immigrant in this country. I've had my green card for only a year and a half, and now I find myself wanting to know more about this place, especially the parts of it history has tried to stamp out. I'm on the lookout for more works by Native Americans, so if you have recommendations, let me know.
whynot: Once Upon a Time in Mexico: malaguena salerosa (up in lights)
2017-05-08 11:31 pm

a short list regarding love

 1. retirement for my dad isn't relaxation. that doesn't seem to be his dream. the dreams he is realizing, the ones he's pursuing now that he has the time and funds to, is to serve. in his twilight years, he seems to be getting his internal ducks in a row. finding order, finding peace in this way. he's working on a panel that approves climate change grants in southeast asia. he gives workshops to university students on how to improve their grant proposals for future projects. he's donating our old house to an orphanage and naming it for my mom, in honor of my grandparents. this moves me. i didn't get along with my mom, but i predict my dad will go through the rest of his life naming every good and beautiful thing in his life for her. our house, the stars, the sea - he'll call them by her name just so she is still in this world with him. the stars come back every night. the waters rise. he knows this. that's why he persists.

2. and then me. and then my love, and all the things i'd name for him. isn't it rude to want to measure joy? i'm curious yet content. a handful of secret names and a collection of habits curated over the course of almost half a life. the habit of constant and casual intimacy. my hand sliding along his forearm as i pass by. eye contact across a room then we kiss the air at each other at the exact same time because that's what muscle memory does. a certain angle of the head means kiss me. a casual kiss on the forehead as we carry dirty glasses to the kitchen is a thoughtless throwaway thing, too ubiquitous to be high in value. but we value it, which is the same as how we have it, which is the same thing as years of learning how to do this, knowing we'll never get it perfect but too deeply a part of one another to care. the bedroom is a mess. i like to hold him when the sun flickers gold on our white walls. i like to hold him when i can hear the rain outside. all my favorite stories are now rooted in this. a long-learned guilt says it's arrogance, that one day i'll pay for all this happiness. everyone who ever resented me will rejoice when i am hurt. i can't stop it; it leaks through in my beliefs. it leaks through in the stories i tell. i love you, i'm home. i love you i love you i love you and i'm home. if i keep this at arm's length for fear of losing it, i'll regret it. i know i'll regret it. he wakes up to kiss me, then burrows into my neck and goes back to sleep. this is what i use to remind me that life goes on, that it waits for me no matter what. and that's why i persist.
whynot: SPN: surprise!Indonesia (all in the family)
2017-05-03 08:08 pm

sup mom

 the mother’s day promos are out in full swing. i have been carrying around in my head the simple fact that most tangible way my mom is still in my life is through makeup. she bought me a clinique lipstick in ‘blushing nude’. it’s my perfect everyday shade. i bought a backup ‘cos i thought the first was about to run out, but it never seems to run out.

other things she gave me that i still have:

neutrogena healthy skin compact foundation in classic ivory - i don’t wear foundation, so i’ve only just begun to play around with this guy. maybe in the future i’ll start using foundation regularly, but rn i use it as a pore-filling primer ‘cos i’m usually too lazy to do a whole face

neutrogena healthy skin pressed powder in fair - used it to set concealer when i wear it, but i just bought a palette that has banana powder in it so we’ll see. both neutrogena products were for my wedding, which was very simple and very small. she probably bought them at target, which she loved and i think found novel because there are no targets back in the philippines & indonesia. 

- discontinued revlon blush. the mirror's broken. i should probably toss this, but i won't.

- skymall-exclusive lancome face palette. most of the pressed powders and eye stuff are kinda bad, except maybe the blush. the lipsticks are fine, but the palette sits in the bottom of the pile and i forget to use it


things she didn't give me but that i'll probably associate with her forever:

- that trendy shimmery lip color that's red with some blue in it. it looked good on her no matter what she wore. i want to pull off this color but i have nowhere to wear this kind of color to. mom didn't care, she'd just wear it everywhere and rocked it

- estee lauder's pleasures - floral, so not really my thing, but pretty. my mom smelled like this going to events

- davidoff's cool water - i love love LOVE how this smells. fresh aqua vibes. i probably would never wear it, though. too much association with mom.


i don't know why i wrote this, except that i've been getting into makeup and skin care, which my mom probably would've appreciated if she were still alive or if i had developed this interest at a younger age. i didn't give a shit about that kind of stuff when i was a kid, which i think irked her somewhat. she and i didn't have the best relationship, but she's dead now and it's gonna be mother's day soon, and for some reason this is what came out. remembering my mom through my new hobby.

whynot: hockey: stay warm in the wintertime (first line)
2016-10-17 05:29 pm

hockey holiday exchange 2016

Dear author,

First of all, thanks for being here! I'm pumped to read whatever it is you wanna write about the things I wanna read! I basically fell in love with Canada's top line over the WCoH so my prompts have something of a theme...

Unsurprisingly, for any combination of Patrice Bergeron/Brad Marchand/Sidney Crosby that I've requested, I'd love something WCoH-centric. Slices of life before, during, and after the tournament. But also, before the tournament, Sid and Marchy have been working out together during the summers in Nova Scotia for the past few years, and I'd love something about their growing relationship over the years. I love hometown feelings, the comfort being on your own turf. idk if there's rivalry between Cole Harbour and Hammonds Plains or what, lol (though that would be great), but I'd love stuff like them showing each other where they skated as kids and where they hung out, stuff like that. Speaking of which, Bergy came to Halifax before the WCoH to bond and skate around, so that's prime fodder for that kind of thing right there. But bonding during the tournament or celebrating the win, those are all A+ too.

Whether it's threesome, or two of them are together and the third one knows or finds out, or two of them are together and no one else knows, I'm up for it! What else do I love, I love emotional game description e.g. what was going through their heads when Marchy scored the GWG short-handed. That "thrill of victory, agony of defeat" stuff, not always the details but how they galvanize the players and open floodgates for them - I eat it up with a spoon. It's been such a tremendous summer for Marchy in general, and it would be such a great bonus for me if you touched on that. Coming from a 37-goal season to win 2 golds, one of which you won playing on the same line with your BFF and your hometown boy? I cry. Marchy is my fave, so if you cast the spotlight a little more on him, that'd be a great bonus.

On a Bergy/Marchy note, Bergy said that he wasn't really worried that Marchy was gonna leave the Bruins by the time they got to final contract negotiations, but I'd be curious about the journey they took to how they both got to be this confident in Marchy's decision. The worry and uncertainty and wondering if they're gonna lose each other at the same time that they're stumbling to each other. Also, unrelatedly, I found this in my notes somewhere: DONT PLAY POND HOCKEY ON THE HAUNTED POND OR YOU'LL HAVE TO GO THRU SOME ORPHEUS-ASS SHIT TO GET YOUR BOYFRIEND BACK. So that's another prompt. I would love that premise for Marchy/Bergy, except with a happier ending lol

On Sid/Marchy note, this thing on my tumblr. On a general note, hockey's pretty much all I tumbl about these days so if you're curious to see how I feel about stuff and things, go ahead and click through.

To go to the other side of the spectrum, the AU that I've been thinking about a lot is one of them is a forest spirit and their woods are in danger of being clear-cut, so the other person (or people, if it's OT3) tries to stop this travesty. Or! A sailor(s) keeps getting lost at sea, and they figure out that it's because one of the stars he navigates by is missing from the sky. The star is the other half/third of the ship.

A belated DNW that I forgot to add on my sign-up: please don't use real life WAGs or Tyler Seguin. I've enjoyed and written fics with both, but I'm not feeling it for this specific challenge. <33

So yeah! Use and/or discard these prompts as your inspiration sees fit! I don't mean to get specific, just want to give you as many jumping-off points as possible so that you can find the one that suits you best! Good luck, author, and thanks again!

xoxo Las
whynot: etc: oh deer (Default)
2016-07-15 01:14 am

thank you so much for the book j i love it <333

should be going to bed but i'm probably going to finish this episode of peaky blinders, this last one, 'cos it's a half day tomorrow anyway. pulling a joe, haha; he justifies late nights thusly. just gonna sit here and ponder death. joe and i joke about "haha i'm going to die before you do, then YOU'LL have to be sad instead of me haha!" and i've been in that headspace from a darker slant. i think my mom's dying. my friend gave me a book, that ny best seller comic that's a memoir about the artist's parents aging and dying. the artist's senile mother talks about conversing with her dead brother , and her caretaker says, "every time i hear her talking to her dead brother, i see a shadow on the bed."

my parents tell me these stories. a week before my grandmother died, she insisted she saw my grandfather in the yard. my grandmother's friend explained that he had come to pick her up, to see her safe passage. forty days after my grandfather died, my dad kept smelling the scent of a particular flower. it was no flower near where he was. it was the scent of the flowers that grew in the cemetery where his father was buried. forty days after someone's death is important in his religion. there is a ceremony; there are prayers. that night my dad dreamed that he walked through a garden with his father. the next day he told his friends and family this dream and they all said the same thing: his father had come to visit him, to make sure he was okay.

i don't have strong beliefs about the afterlife out of a deep-seated anxiety about being wrong about it. but i am moved by how death can push love to the forefront. death as a reminder of love. i will be irritated by anyone dismissing my family's grief through empiricism and rationalism, even though i cannot say whether i agree 100% to the exact alignment of my family's beliefs. i don't know. my grandmother was widowed at 21 with three children. her husband died in battle. his portrait hung in the first house i ever lived in and i have memorized his face, black and white and somber and young. my grandmother had to wait a long time to see him again. i hope they're happy, i think. i don't know.
whynot: hockey: stay warm in the wintertime (first line)
2015-03-22 11:10 pm

enough kindness to gut you straight through

Most of the background of this happened in an email, which I'll collate and post later, but I think you can get it without context.

NOTFIC: reilly smith has the meeps feat. patrice and brad )