I love Philip Pullman's trilogy so muuuuch. Lyra has the best and most believable emotional development of a YA lit character I've seen in ages.
Sam needs to find his grace. ...Because Sam Winchester must die. lol yes. Not dying is totally a good enough reason to find his grace. Probably Sam and Dean argue a little about it because Sam doesn't want to be an angel again, he'd rather die or something, but Dean says, "Sam, you have to, you stupid son of a bitch," all fierce and stuff, "Please, Sam," all desperate and pleading, and in the end, Sam will do it for Dean. And in the moment Sam gets his grace back, the world goes white and blinding for mortals, but Dean cannot look away from the brightness of his brother, stricken by relieved recognition, by hope, by love. All the times Dean never let himself think he'd never find Sam again, all the times Dean thought about never having Sam by his side the same way again, even after finding him, because Sam chose to be human. But here he is, here is the Sam Dean knew, the Sam Dean will always know, the angel and ally and brother, full of grace and glory and power. Sam makes eye contact with Dean for a brief moment, and Dean can't quite tell if Sam looks shocked or happy or frightened, Sam's just all wide eyes and celestial radiance. And by the time the light fades from the room, by the time the humans can open their eyes, Sam is gone.
And for a few seconds Dean just gives himself over to his vessel, breathing in and out, breathing deep. Loss and numbness translated by the human body into coldness in his chest and a weight in his belly.
He feels a hand on his shoulder and Dean looks up, and it's Cas, giving him a look that asks no questions but offers something soft and gentle. That snaps Dean out of it. Dean straightens his shoulders, straightens his face; he is a gun cocked.
"You have to get out of here," Dean says, so Cas gathers Anna in his arms, trying to be careful with the broken bones but she whimpers anyway.
"Where are we going?" Cas asks.
"You guys are going to Uriel's."
Cas raises his eyebrows. "And you--"
"I'm going to find my brother," says Dean. "The angels are hunting him, Cas, like he's some monster. My brother is not a monster."
"Dean--"
He touches two fingers to Cas's forehead, and Cas and Anna are gone.
Dean spreads his wings.
I still love Ruby. Her story could easily be told in a way that was sympathetic. Narrative imperative prevented this, sure. Well, sympathetic not as in "I understand wanting to destroy the world" but sympathetic as in "I understand devotion and love and faith to my prophet".
Maybe John doesn't end up in hell after all, so maybe Dean ends up saving Cas from something else. I hope this doesn't mean I have to lose my Orpheus parallel. Gahhhh, I like the hell thing! Maybe I should look into Nietzsche for inspiration, lol.
would he really strike up the deal in the basement? That's the thing. What on EARTH would God ever sacrifice himself for? lol maybe he gives to the world his only begotten son? But then He changes his mind last minute. But WHY would John give Cas up in the first place?
Maybe I should move some of the emotional centerstage to angel!Winchesters after all, and figure out how Dean's search for Sam incorporates Cas and Anna.
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Sam needs to find his grace. ...Because Sam Winchester must die.
lol yes. Not dying is totally a good enough reason to find his grace. Probably Sam and Dean argue a little about it because Sam doesn't want to be an angel again, he'd rather die or something, but Dean says, "Sam, you have to, you stupid son of a bitch," all fierce and stuff, "Please, Sam," all desperate and pleading, and in the end, Sam will do it for Dean. And in the moment Sam gets his grace back, the world goes white and blinding for mortals, but Dean cannot look away from the brightness of his brother, stricken by relieved recognition, by hope, by love. All the times Dean never let himself think he'd never find Sam again, all the times Dean thought about never having Sam by his side the same way again, even after finding him, because Sam chose to be human. But here he is, here is the Sam Dean knew, the Sam Dean will always know, the angel and ally and brother, full of grace and glory and power. Sam makes eye contact with Dean for a brief moment, and Dean can't quite tell if Sam looks shocked or happy or frightened, Sam's just all wide eyes and celestial radiance. And by the time the light fades from the room, by the time the humans can open their eyes, Sam is gone.
And for a few seconds Dean just gives himself over to his vessel, breathing in and out, breathing deep. Loss and numbness translated by the human body into coldness in his chest and a weight in his belly.
He feels a hand on his shoulder and Dean looks up, and it's Cas, giving him a look that asks no questions but offers something soft and gentle. That snaps Dean out of it. Dean straightens his shoulders, straightens his face; he is a gun cocked.
"You have to get out of here," Dean says, so Cas gathers Anna in his arms, trying to be careful with the broken bones but she whimpers anyway.
"Where are we going?" Cas asks.
"You guys are going to Uriel's."
Cas raises his eyebrows. "And you--"
"I'm going to find my brother," says Dean. "The angels are hunting him, Cas, like he's some monster. My brother is not a monster."
"Dean--"
He touches two fingers to Cas's forehead, and Cas and Anna are gone.
Dean spreads his wings.
I still love Ruby. Her story could easily be told in a way that was sympathetic. Narrative imperative prevented this, sure. Well, sympathetic not as in "I understand wanting to destroy the world" but sympathetic as in "I understand devotion and love and faith to my prophet".
Maybe John doesn't end up in hell after all, so maybe Dean ends up saving Cas from something else. I hope this doesn't mean I have to lose my Orpheus parallel. Gahhhh, I like the hell thing! Maybe I should look into Nietzsche for inspiration, lol.
would he really strike up the deal in the basement?
That's the thing. What on EARTH would God ever sacrifice himself for? lol maybe he gives to the world his only begotten son? But then He changes his mind last minute. But WHY would John give Cas up in the first place?
Maybe I should move some of the emotional centerstage to angel!Winchesters after all, and figure out how Dean's search for Sam incorporates Cas and Anna.