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Las ([personal profile] whynot) wrote2004-09-06 08:51 am

[...one long dying twilight...]

Overdue ducttape!fic for [livejournal.com profile] zehara. Sorry it took so long, Billie. Thanks again for the VCD and I hope you like this fic, even with its lack of honey and disco balls. (I tried, I tried, I really did. I’ll get them someday.)


Adhesive
Boondock Saints. Connor/Murphy. R. Warning: incest.
It has a light side, it has a dark side, and it holds the universe together. Continued from this.



After taping up the window, Connor moved on to taping other things. The walls, for instance. He tore off a strip of duct tape with his teeth, cut it into smaller strips with his knife, and formed words on the wall with sharp cuneiform-like letters. He started with HELLO and CONNOR, and got as far as MURPHY IS A before Murphy tackled him from behind.

You can’t talk to me about wasting the tape anymore, said Murphy, taping Connor’s mouth. He bent over his brother, not even a breath apart, and tore the tape with his teeth like a carnivore or the distortion of a kiss. Murphy said, you can’t talk at all.


[]


Number one, they had no hot water. Number two, their blankets were nothing more than thin sheets. Cobwebs masquerading as sheets, Connor said to Murphy, and Murphy smirked. These days, they slept together on one mattress, curled around each other like a complicated mind-twister puzzle you could buy at weekend flea markets. It was still fucking freezing.

We got all the cracks, did we not, asked Connor. Murphy said there must be cracks that neither of them could see and Connor replied that it didn’t matter anyway. If they were going to die cold and alone three thousand miles away from home, then so be it. It was God’s will.

Autumn was scrubbing out the last traces of summer, and Connor and Murphy began to spend more time at McGinty’s, pissing away their sobriety with an Italian bloke who did runs for the Russian mob and told amusing ‘work’-related stories that Connor had a feeling he shouldn’t be telling.

There was a lot more darkness in the space of twenty-four hours. A lot more cold. The days weren’t getting shorter so much as they were becoming one long day. In Connor’s mind, the days merged together for want of milestones with which to separate them, and became one long dying twilight.


[]


After a few weeks, the writing on the wall began to peel. It began to collect dust and grime and look more like Mesopotamian chicken scratches than before.

Connor lay on his side, facing the wall, turning VERITAS into RITA, who was a girl he used to go with when he was fifteen. He was about to turn RITA into IT when Murphy reached over and stuck another piece of duct tape on the inside of his wrist.

Sometimes Murphy would stick on pieces of duct tape on Connor’s body just for the hell of it, even when--especially when--Connor told him to stop. He didn’t like the way Murphy watched him while he peeled them off and fucking fuck, they were hell to peel off. Murphy would watch Connor breathe long breaths, watch him touch his wounds with morbid curiosity, until Murphy seemed to reach some sort of breaking point where he would shove Connor down on the mattress and.

I can get used to this, Connor thought as Murphy’s tongue slipped into his mouth. I can get used to this, he thought as he pushed into Murphy, panting raggedly, leaving marks on Murphy’s hips in the shape of bitten fingernails.

Connor could get used to this.

In the end, he could always say it was just another way to keep warm.


[end.]

[identity profile] dreamiflame.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 01:02 am (UTC)(link)
I love the idea of Rocco telling stories he shouldn't. And hey, sex is a long and well-respected way to keep warm. ;)

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
I know what I'll be doing come winter.

[identity profile] lilithilien.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
GUH!

I love this, beautifully written, perfectly voiced, and all the innuendo.

This sentence absolutely kills me: "Murphy would watch Connor breathe long breaths, watch him touch his wounds with morbid curiosity, until Murphy seemed to reach some sort of breaking point where he would shove Connor down on the mattress and."

I'm so glad I found your journal!

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
It's good to be found :). Thanks, man.
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[identity profile] anjali-organna.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
Random question: in all your BS fics that I can remember, Murphy is always the sexual initiator. Do you do that on purpose or what?

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:36 am (UTC)(link)
Holy shit, I never really noticed that before. It was a purposeful decision to write from Connor's POV, but not purposeful to be the one submitting instead of initiating. [Psych 101isms go here.] Mayhaps I like the ambiguity of Connor's non-action. I'm a sucker for ambiguity.
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[identity profile] anjali-organna.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 02:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Tee hee, Freud would love slashers, I think.

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 05:52 pm (UTC)(link)
THERE IS A HUGE FREUD STATUE IN THE SQUARE OF MY COLLEGE CAMPUS. We bring him offerings and our problems to him to delegate and his solution for everything is either a stony silence or a hearty "Go fuck your mother!"

[identity profile] ion-bond.livejournal.com 2004-09-09 10:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I've never seen any other BS fic, but I just found your journal after reading "Point A to Point A" (which blew my mind) and read this. Wow. You have the characterization down, for Murphy and Conner as well as the FC narrator, Tyler, and Marla. You're amazing.

But I was intrugued by the Freud statue. Do you, by any chance, go to Clark?

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-10 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
Yes! Yes, I am a Clarkie. Never mind the Sex Pistols, here comes the Bullock!

Thank you so much, man :). I'm so psyched that you read Point A To Point A. It's a personal favorite of mine so I get excited when people see it :). Glad you enjoyed that, and this. Totally gracias.

If you're looking for other good BS fic, I'd like to point you in [livejournal.com profile] lux__aeterna's direction. She's rather awesome with it.

[identity profile] ion-bond.livejournal.com 2004-09-10 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so psyched that you read Point A To Point A. It's a personal favorite of mine so I get excited when people see it :).

It rocked my world. Are you sure you aren't really Chuck Palahckn . . . ? [I give up. You get the picture.]

Yeah, Clark! GO!
I'm actually a townie from Worcester, so I grew up hating Holy Cross students and laughing at Clarkies. Rich kids skulking around University Park after twilight looking nervous . . .
But you guys are chill. Cinema 320 rules.
Anyway, thanks for the rec.

'in memory of wendy boyle'

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-10 06:51 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not moneyed but I've done my bit of skulking around DHP, yeah.

[identity profile] swear-jar.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:53 am (UTC)(link)
I was just about to ask that. Weeeiiiirrd.

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 08:02 am (UTC)(link)
It was either you or [livejournal.com profile] juniper_nyne saying that Norman Reedus's default state is 'naughty'.

[identity profile] swear-jar.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
Wasn't me (er, probably), but I really, really... really agree.

[identity profile] bladdergirl.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
He didn’t like the way Murphy watched him while he peeled them off

*wriggles* hello tape!kink, I've missed you since primary school.

Awesome and stark. Loved it.

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:36 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, m'dear. :)
Also, your childhood sounds more interesting than mine.

[identity profile] stewardess.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
It is really not safe for me to think of these two and tape. Not safe at all. Thank you for making me do it.

Love blabbermouth Rocco. *g*

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:37 am (UTC)(link)
Nooooo problem. ;)

[identity profile] rainjewel.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
The days weren’t getting shorter so much as they were becoming one long day. In Connor’s mind, the days merged together for want of milestones with which to separate them, and became one long dying twilight.

Beautiful, and an excellent example of the originality and talent you possess that keeps me running around and beggin.

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
Oh gosh. *le blush* Thank you!

[identity profile] zehara.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
*long, happy, contented sigh*

I don't even know where to start. Thank you seems appropriate :) I can't get enough of your Connor and Murphy, they kill me dead. In a happy way. (I knew duct tape was a good idea *wink*)

Sometimes Murphy would stick on pieces of duct tape on Connor’s body just for the hell of it, even when--especially when--Connor told him to stop.
He's such a brat *snuggles him*

I can get used to this, he thought as he pushed into Murphy, panting raggedly, leaving marks on Murphy’s hips in the shape of bitten fingernails.
You make it all hot and sweaty with very little words. The images in my head right now...ohhh yeah.

I love how at first it's kinda quirky, with the tackling and what not, then all of a sudden there's sad Connor.

In Connor’s mind, the days merged together for want of milestones with which to separate them, and became one long dying twilight.
Oh. *sniff* See?

My favourite line:
Murphy would watch Connor breathe long breaths, watch him touch his wounds with morbid curiosity, until Murphy seemed to reach some sort of breaking point where he would shove Connor down on the mattress and.

I love this. So very much :) Pfft to the waiting, I knew it would be worth it! thankyouthankyouthankyou!

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:42 am (UTC)(link)
It's the least I can do. Wish I could have actually worked in the honey and disco ball. That was previously in there, if only in dialogue, but someday, Billie, someday. honey&discoball!fic! :-*

[identity profile] kakeordeth.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:00 am (UTC)(link)
God this was amazing. As per usual.

These days, they slept together on one mattress, curled around each other like a complicated mind-twister puzzle you could buy at weekend flea markets.
*speechless*

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:44 am (UTC)(link)
Aww shucks. :) Thanks, dude.

[identity profile] tacks.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 08:13 am (UTC)(link)
ow.

You make me unable to give any kind of proper review.

KEEP DOING IT.

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 05:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Sure thing, sister. :)
*squeezes you*

[identity profile] tacks.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 05:56 pm (UTC)(link)
*beams back*

[identity profile] juniper-nyne.livejournal.com 2004-09-06 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
*happy sigh*

pissing away their sobriety with an Italian bloke who did runs for the Russian mob and told amusing 'work'-related stories that Connor had a feeling he shouldn't be telling.
Hee! Made me grin big goofy fond grin for Rocco (RIP).

There was a lot more darkness in the space of twenty-four hours. A lot more cold. The days weren't getting shorter so much as they were becoming one long day. In Connor's mind, the days merged together for want of milestones with which to separate them, and became one long dying twilight.
Oh wow, just marvelous. I especially love the long dying twilight.

Murphy would watch Connor breathe long breaths, watch him touch his wounds with morbid curiosity, until Murphy seemed to reach some sort of breaking point where he would shove Connor down on the mattress and.
Argh!
*puts out fire in pants*
Ow.

I can get used to this, Connor thought
Hmmm.
I love the take you have on the brothers McManus - it's quite unusual. It's not necessarily the most natural thing in the world for them. It's new, it's strange, it's awkward, it's something that has to be gotten used to.
And the atmosphere of this fic is so.....melancholy....captured by the days of twilight imagery...bleakness....as the twins' world both literal and emotional slowly metamorphoses into a strangeness that is not necessarily good.

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-07 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
Your feedback makes me fuzzy inside.
It's not necessarily the most natural thing in the world for them. It's new, it's strange, it's awkward, it's something that has to be gotten used to.
Ya! Ya ya ya!
Thank you, m'dear.

[identity profile] guede-mazaka.livejournal.com 2004-09-07 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
As usual, a deceptively simple work of art. I love how the changes of emotions come out by way of actions and description, and not from direct narration. You let us figure it out instead of telling us what they're thinking.

Thanks, man. And is that SPF in your icon?

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-07 07:37 am (UTC)(link)
I possibly have an ambiguity!kink.

Yup, that's him

[identity profile] guede-mazaka.livejournal.com 2004-09-07 12:30 pm (UTC)(link)
He looks like he's wearing a collar, doesn't he?

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-07 01:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah he does, that's what I thought!
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[identity profile] figletofvenice.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
The third part is my favorite. I love it.

He was about to turn RITA into IT when Murphy reached over and stuck another piece of duct tape on the inside of his wrist. I just love the flow of this, the way that what he's doing just bleeds into something else.

Sometimes Murphy would stick on pieces of duct tape on Connor’s body just for the hell of it, even when--especially when--Connor told him to stop. Can I see Murphy doing this? Hell yes. I love their personalities in this fic.

From the second part: Autumn was scrubbing out the last traces of summer Wonderful image!

Looooved this. It's all very simple, but detailed. And good. Yum. (Wow, quite coherent feedback I've got going one here. Really. ::snort::)

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-09-08 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks so much, man. Awesome :).

(Wow, quite coherent feedback I've got going one here. Coherence? Where!? Kill it kill it!

*glomp*

[identity profile] himmerethwen.livejournal.com 2004-09-30 08:23 am (UTC)(link)
bahjesus! this was awesome...never again will sticky gray duct tape be seen the same way!...all your fault...bravo, bravo...and quickie question...where can i find Point A to Point A...cuz i seriously NEED to read it...thanks buddy!

Re: *glomp*

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-10-01 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks very much, man, and alright I'll accept that responsibility :).

Point A to Point A is here: http://www.livejournal.com/users/lassiterfics/4898.html

[identity profile] suatre.livejournal.com 2004-11-10 07:16 pm (UTC)(link)
YES. can never get enough boondock saints slash. rock on :D

[identity profile] twoskeletons.livejournal.com 2004-11-11 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, man. Awesome. Thanks for reading.

[identity profile] darkmike.livejournal.com 2004-11-22 01:12 am (UTC)(link)
I just watched the movie [finally found time] so now I'm doing the rounds and reading as much fic as I can.

This was rad, as all things you write are.

[identity profile] lionessfreedom.livejournal.com 2005-10-17 05:30 am (UTC)(link)
Mmm... I'm not sure how I found you, but I'm so. Fucking. Glad. That I did.

*marries you*