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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING callowyn, LIGHT OF MY LIFE, who asked, "Which of you will be the first to write this for me?" and the answer is: me. ILU 5EVA CALLYFACE <######

Thank you to thegeminisage for betareading! Title from "Assurance" by William Stafford.


So Deep a Sound
Supernatural/Boondock Saints. Murphy MacManus, Connor MacManus, Claire Novak, Castiel. PG13.
The brothers pick up a third (fourth?) passenger. ~1200 words

( Are you afraid of me? )

This started when gabbysilang posted these pictures and skeleton!Castiel burrowed its way into my brain and refused to leave. I return him to you now, Gabby, in fic form (ONE YEAR LATE, LOL X| sorry) on the grand occasion of your birth. Happy birthday, you amazing mind, you relentless inspiration! Thanks for being in my life. <333 Have an amazing, amazing everything ever.


Title: Dry Bones
Characters: Claire/Castiel, Jimmy, Amelia
Rating: R for gore and creepiness
Warnings: Highlight to read. Violent imagery, self-harm, animal cruelty, character death, incestuous-by-proxy necrophilia.
Notes: The title is from the song of the same name, performed here by the Delta Rhythm Boys. Thank you very much to Cally, Meto, and Amy for fielding my freak-outs and reading over the draft. You guys rock.
Summary: Skeleton!Castiel AU. Claire has an imaginary friend and violent tendencies, not necessarily in that order. ~4100 words


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( 'I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free.' --Michelangelo )

I'm sorry, Claire. I'm sorry, Cas. I'm sorry, Jimmy. But thank you callowyn and zempasuchil for betareading!


Memento Mori
Supernatural. Claire/Castiel, Claire/Castiel/OCs, Risa. Peripheral Dean, Chuck, and Jimmy.
NC17. WARNING: dubious consent, de facto incest, drug use, implied unverified underage.
5x04verse. Claire lost her father for the third time when she arrived at Camp Chitaqua. ~3500 words

( Claire doubts he had been waiting for her, but he seemed unsurprised to see her at his door. )

[originally posted at http://whynot.dreamwidth.org/46991.html | comments]

AND NOW, a snippet from the tragicomedy, Lassiter Tries To Get Her Shit Together. Act II: First World Problems. MY SMARTPHONE IS OUTSMARTING ME. Fucking Blackberry is going to become sentient overnight and kill me in my sleep, I swear to fucking god. Blackberry internetting still eludes me, alas, but, ummm... at least all the Casfest pinch-hits are covered? All I brought for lunch to work today are double-stuff milanos, because why the motherfucking eyefuck not. PS: Please don't crosspost my shit to Facebook or Twitter, thanks.

I wrote this next commentfic at wandersfound's. The prompt was 'possessiveness/jealousy'. Despite having written this for the Five Acts meme, it is Novak gen. Such as it goes. I'm also gonna go ahead and count this for the Jimmy square of my spnsupporting table. Guess that SPN/Stonehenge Apocalypse twincest AU will just have to wait.

The epigraph is from 'After Persephone' by Tracy K. Smith, which is a poem about angel/vessel PTSD. Thank you to zempasuchil for betareading.


Fiat Lux
Supernatural. Jimmy, Claire, Castiel. PG.
Futurefic. The next time Castiel needs a vessel, it's Claire who says yes. Jimmy POV. ~2000 words

( Then retreat / Into the present. That silence. / Not emptiness, but weight. )

[originally posted at http://whynot.dreamwidth.org/33781.html | comments]

I was gonna make just the one fanmix for spnrarepairs, but then I started writing drabbles for each song, which quickly became full-blown fic, and then I got cold feet because I realized that the fic is kinda the opposite of my requester's list of preferred kinks and special elements... So. I'll just post this here, then.


Winter For A Year
Supernatural. Amelia, Claire, Jimmy, brief Team Free Will; Amelia/Jimmy. PG. Spoilers for 4x20. Thanks to zempasuchil for betareading.
The mix for the fic is available for download here: Breathe On Mirrors
Amelia Novak after her husband's disappearance. ~3000 words

( What should we name the snowman, Claire? )

[originally posted at http://whynot.dreamwidth.org/29999.html | comments]

Wait, wait, I'm not done posting wrongbad porn on your flist yet. You guys like satanic underaged dubcon, right?

Think of it as Sassy fic with a twist!


A Company, A Crowd
Supernatural. Samifer/Clairestiel, Lucifer/Castiel/Sam, implied Clairestiel/Dean. NC17. WARNINGS: underaged, dubcon, noncon, burning, asphyxiation OMGWTF WHO EVEN AM I ANYMORE ;_____;
Written for the blindfold_spn prompt "Claire!Cas/Sam!Lucifer, 5x04verse. It's the end of the world, so she might as well just walk into the lion's den and beg and laugh and cry." ~1300 words

( fiat lux )

[originally posted at http://whynot.dreamwidth.org/29413.html | comments]

I wrote a couple of fills at blindfold_spn, and here is the tamer of the two. idk. The last time I wrote porn was a year and a half ago, and my reentry into NC17 is with something that gets you arrested in most states. Motherfucking kink meme rassa frassa. idek. Someone take the internet away from me.


Ashes, Ashes
Supernatural. Claire!Castiel/Dean. NC17. WARNINGS: underage (her age is never specified, but she is pretty clearly a teenager, so, y'know), vessel noncon
5x04verse. Written for the prompt "This vessel is growing up and coming of age, and sometimes Castiel gives in to the urges." ~1300 words

( none of these contracted feelings in the heart that ache without pain )

[originally posted at http://whynot.dreamwidth.org/29024.html | comments]

This one is for the Uriel box of my spnsupporting table. Title is from the Hendrix song because it's totally appropriate.


Little Wing
Supernatural. Uriel, Claire!Castiel. G. Spoilers for 4x01, 4x03, 4x07, and 4x16.
Episode tags for 4x01, 4x03, and 4x07 in the AU where Castiel's vessel has always been Claire Novak. 1331 words.

( Look what you've done. )

[originally posted at http://whynot.dreamwidth.org/27251.html | comments]