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I signed up for deancas_xmas. You should too! Oct 31 is the last day to sign up, so hop to.

For now, WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT KEVIN. Apologies if you've seen this before. I'm reposting for purposes of archival and possible further ramblings. Don't get me wrong, I love the Kevin we have now, and my heart shatters rainbowly at how badass being on his own has forced him to become, but ( I still wonder how things could’ve gone down if Sam had answered Kevin’s calls. )

...and suddenly Wincestuous Girlchesters! Thank you, skullage, for betareading.


Record Skip
Supernatural. girl!Sam/girl!Dean. NC17. Warning: incest, 2nd person POV, canon death. Spoilers for 3x11. Written for SPN Femslash Week.
Missing scenes from 'Mystery Spot'. ~1200 words

( Love is the least of your problems. )

This is a (very D:) belated birthday gift for the endlessly splendid august_monsoon! I'm sorry this is super late ;______; but know that I adoooore you and you are one of the sweetest ever, and your art never fails to blow me away. <3333 Please have this Team Free Will shmoop. I hope you're having a wonderful weekend!

Thank you to callowyn for betareading. Title is from "Over Our Heads" by Zero 7.


Light Keeps Passing Through
Supernatural. Dean/Cas, Sam. R. Spoilers through 5x14.
Set after the events of 'My Bloody Valentine'. "It's not so impossible." ~2200 words

( I think there's a lake somewhere up here. )

That awkward moment when you intend to write Dean/Cas shmoop but end up writing Sam POV gen instead.

Sort of.


Signal To Noise
Supernatural. Sam, Dean, Bobby. PG13. Spoilers through 6x20.
Missing scenes from 6x20, on the way to and at Ellsworth's. ~1900 words

( It's been like this all morning. )

The excerpt Sam quotes in this fic is from David Jasper's The Sacred Desert, which I think I will be getting for my birthday. I CANNOT WAIT. You can read its preface and postscript here for free. You can also find a small part of the first chapter here on Google Books. SO BEAUTIFUL. DESERTGASM.

Here is Commentfic #2 from the ohsam commentfic meme, touched up and reposted. ngl, it's pretty much angst porn.


Along Every Horizon
Supernatural. Sam. PG13. Set in a post-S6 future. Warning: character death.
Written for de_nugis's prompt: "If Dean were to die on Sam now, I don’t think Sam would go crazy or vengeful or try to open hell gates or drink demon blood or anything. I think he’d even try to go on, knowing that that’s what Dean would want and really, really not wanting to fuck up Dean’s last wishes again. But I think he’d just fade, get killed by some random monster, not out of any suicidal drive, but just because he was having trouble paying attention to details like food or sleep or ravening creatures with lots of big, nasty teeth. ~1500 words

( You must become more silent than the silence around you. )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DARLING SAMMYSUCHIL. I tried to write you Dean/girl!Sam, but it ended up being kinda creepy, uh... so maybe that is for another time. Meanwhile, have some Dean&girl!Sam shmoop! Also, have these three songs about Winchesters - "Didn't It Rain" by Songs: Ohia, "The Story of My Life" by Astronautalis, and "Roadside Distraction" by Aaron Parks, which is an instrumental but is totally the background music of Sam and Dean driving down America's highways. Beloved zempasuchil, ilusfm <33 FOR YOU ARE A JOLLY GOOD FELLOW that nobody can denyyyyyy.


All That Glitters
Supernatural. Dean, Sam. PG13.
Set shortly after the pilot. ~780 words
ETA: The wonderful august_monsoon has drawn art for this fic here.

( Sam has been taller than you since the tenth grade. )

I've been wibbling back and forth about whether or not I should post this because omg this is not my usual fannish medium, and omg my voice on the internets, and omg if we only had more time, we could do better. But we didn't have more time, and we were trying our damndest to finish this before I had to leave the country, so, y'know. This is what we have.

Basically my boyfriend is building a home studio and he was like, "Do you wanna record any of your songs?" and I was like, "What about this one?" So he listened to me sing it and asked, "...Is this about Supernatural?" He's so smart, you guys.

So! This is my belated 5x22 reaction post. EXCUSE ME WHILE I SING ABOUT MY FEELINGS. Well, Dean's feelings. I can't stress how important my boyfriend was to making this recording happen. I may have written the song, but he was invaluable with his input and his mysterious superpower of getting his various machines to do what I want them to. That's him playing the guitar solo at the end.

He also said I can name our band whatever I want.


Title: In the Dark
Band: The Camp Chitaqua Ragtime Ensemble
Length: 3:50
Characters: Sam/Dean (or Sam&Dean, if you have your gen goggles on)
Summary: Post-5x22. Life after Sam is still Sam all over the place.

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