all my keysmash are belong to you

This is for ricketyhands as part of the dc_summerlovin challenge, but um, I accidentally autumnlovin'd? I hope you like it, ricketyhands!

Thank you to switchbladesis for betareading.


Tomorrow
Supernatural. Dean/Castiel. R.
5x04verse. Dean and Cas take a break from searching for this Camp Chitaqua they've heard so much about. ~2000 words

( We'll stay here for now. )

In addition to weatheredlaw, I would also like to blame callowyn, skullage, and zempasuchil. YOU GUYS ARE THE WORST AT SAVING ME FROM MYSELF. :(

Anyway, here is the rambling synopsis/outline (...outlinefic?) for a 'verse I don't have time to write. WW2 AU, Pacific theater. Sam/Dean pining, Dean/Castiel-ish probably sort of maybe, Victor, Bobby-ish, PG13, character death.

It's a 4500-word outline, on account of how it keeps trying to be real fic.


( I'm not really a man of faith, sir. )

I've been doodling things on Photoshop and posting them to tumblr. One of them is this Dean&Castiel graphic that I originally posted here. It's also under the cut below. Maybe one day it'll grow up to be a fanmix cover? idk. The text is from Rilke's First Elegy (tr. Stephen Mitchell).
( there is no place where we can remain )

ICON MEME
1. Reply to this post with "SUSPENDERS ARE COOL", and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.

lettersandliars chose ( these icons. )

Oh hey, also:
My thread is here.

Hey guys, 15 more hours.

This is a (very D:) belated birthday gift for the endlessly splendid august_monsoon! I'm sorry this is super late ;______; but know that I adoooore you and you are one of the sweetest ever, and your art never fails to blow me away. <3333 Please have this Team Free Will shmoop. I hope you're having a wonderful weekend!

Thank you to callowyn for betareading. Title is from "Over Our Heads" by Zero 7.


Light Keeps Passing Through
Supernatural. Dean/Cas, Sam. R. Spoilers through 5x14.
Set after the events of 'My Bloody Valentine'. "It's not so impossible." ~2200 words

( I think there's a lake somewhere up here. )

This secret showed up on the new SPNsecrets post, and my heart goes out to you, anon. Sturgeon's Law always applies: you have to work to find the grittier D/C that doesn't let them fix things with sex or Troo Luv, or swap out characterization for stock tropes. It is out there though, and I want you to find it if you're looking for it because when done right, it cuts straight to the bone. I know these things are highly subjective, but if you also like your D/C fics rife with crossed loyalties and stubborn distances, then maybe you might find something you like in...

...my highly subjective D/C starter kit! This is as much for my reference as it is yours, all my favorites in one place. I tried to keep it explicitly D/C instead of the shippiness-masquerading-as-gen that is my wont. I multiship Cas all over the place these days (Cas/regrettable things OTP), but D/C holds a special place in my heart and here are eight fics that I think are pretty amazing.

( SO FUCKING PROFOUND: a D/C starter kit )

It being Poetry Month, have a poem about them:

MOVEMENT SONG

I have studied the tight curls on the back of your neck
moving away from me
beyond anger or failure
your face in the evening schools of longing
through mornings of wish and ripen
we were always saying goodbye
in the blood in the bone over coffee
before dashing for elevators going
in opposite directions
without goodbyes.

Do not remember me as a bridge nor a roof
as the maker of legends
nor as a trap
door to that world
where black and white clericals
hang on the edge of beauty in five oclock elevators
twitching their shoulders to avoid other flesh
and now
there is someone to speak for them
moving away from me into tomorrows
morning of wish and ripen
your goodbye is a promise of lightning
in the last angels hand
unwelcome and warning
the sands have run out against us
we were rewarded by journeys
away from each other
into desire
into mornings alone
where excuse and endurance mingle
conceiving decision.
Do not remember me
as disaster
nor as the keeper of secrets
I am a fellow rider in the cattle cars
watching
you move slowly out of my bed
saying we cannot waste time
only ourselves.

Audre Lorde

Holy shit, the last time I really wrote non-subtexty actualfax Dean/Cas fic (ummm, Jimmy!Cas, at least) was in FEBRUARY, lolol. Aww, ship, I've missed you. I shouldn't be so surprised that all my Dean/Cas-for-real fics are croatverse fics, huh. This next one is no exception. Guys, guuuuyyys, why is there not a whole croatverse spin-off, omfg.

The prompt was "shotgunning". I wrote it for emerald_embers for Five Acts. I tweaked it some, reposting it now. The title is from A Perfect Circle's "3 Libras" which is so ridiculously croatverse Dean/Cas, it hurts.


Threw You the Obvious
Supernatural. Dean/Cas. R. Warning: drug use.
5x04verse. "Dean looks down the barrel of a gun as Cas sits on a crate and breaks up the weed." ~1300 words

( Corinthians, chapter six, verse nineteen. )

I wrote a couple of fills at blindfold_spn, and here is the tamer of the two. idk. The last time I wrote porn was a year and a half ago, and my reentry into NC17 is with something that gets you arrested in most states. Motherfucking kink meme rassa frassa. idek. Someone take the internet away from me.


Ashes, Ashes
Supernatural. Claire!Castiel/Dean. NC17. WARNINGS: underage (her age is never specified, but she is pretty clearly a teenager, so, y'know), vessel noncon
5x04verse. Written for the prompt "This vessel is growing up and coming of age, and sometimes Castiel gives in to the urges." ~1300 words

( none of these contracted feelings in the heart that ache without pain )